WoW….

What humbles me beyond words is that in 2 days…2 whole days…I will be 50.

Now I am not hung up on the worldly view of what that means…I am rendered to dumbfounded silence because I beat the odds.

Me…the person who swore from the rooftops (literally at the top of my lungs) i didn’t have it in me to be anything but a statistic.

Me…the person who is continually haunted by ‘what a mistake I am’, ‘how…

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The New Moon is up in the sky and last night was the Fall Equinox; which means equal in I believe Latin.It has been a real energy building, creativity spurred couple of days for me.There is something creative brewing in my belly, do not have any idea what it is…yet. I will find out what it is and create…this has always been a very creative time for me when the long hot days of summer turn to cooler days and shorter nights.I no longer fear any darkness so I am grateful it comes on sooner than it did a month ago.Happy 1st day of fall ya’ll. Time for hot apple cider, hot cocoa, pretty, pretty hues…the most ironic thing is that everything bursts the bestest with all kinds of color just before it dies…Have a blessed day. This day will never come again so breathe in the life of fall…let it settle into your bones…let it speak all of its mysteries to you.Love & Grace.

The New Moon is up in the sky and last night was the Fall Equinox; which means equal in I believe Latin.
It has been a real energy building, creativity spurred couple of days for me.
There is something creative brewing in my belly, do not have any idea what it is…yet. 
I will find out what it is and create…this has always been a very creative time for me when the long hot days of summer turn to cooler days and shorter nights.
I no longer fear any darkness so I am grateful it comes on sooner than it did a month ago.
Happy 1st day of fall ya’ll. Time for hot apple cider, hot cocoa, pretty, pretty hues…the most ironic thing is that everything bursts the bestest with all kinds of color just before it dies…
Have a blessed day. This day will never come again so breathe in the life of fall…let it settle into your bones…let it speak all of its mysteries to you.

Love & Grace.

I Wait….and I Listen…

It is driving me mad today…

I simply don’t know what to do…

There is a tugging on my soul to be creative in some fashion and I just don’t know what that looks like. I have 2 blogs and a Facebook page and there is just something…

Checked into a pottery class which I think would be pretty amazing…my soul is talking to me again…it was like this when I painted…it was like this when I did a circle…

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"In this African tribe, when someone does something wrong, they take the person to the center of the village where the tribe surrounds him and for 2 days say all the good he has done. The tribe believes each person is good but sometimes people make mistakes, which are really a cry for help. They unite to reconnect him with his good nature."

Don’t shame me because I make mistakes. Love me so I will not do them again.
Love & Grace.

"In this African tribe, when someone does something wrong, they take the person to the center of the village where the tribe surrounds him and for 2 days say all the good he has done. The tribe believes each person is good but sometimes people make mistakes, which are really a cry for help. They unite to reconnect him with his good nature."

Don’t shame me because I make mistakes. Love me so I will not do them again.

Love & Grace.

Deleting My Life…

Damn….I am removing the “convenience” of a ‘smart phone’ in my life in favor of the old time land line…and so this morning, with Jason Mraz on Spotify playing on the computer I am busy backing up and saving…

Then I get to the photos on my ‘iCloud’ and in the interest of not saving triples I start deleting those photos off of my iPhone…knowing and trusting they are on iPhoto on my MacBook Pro…

Wel…

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Beds & Walls

So just because the outer package looks like a girl…has for almost 50 years…that is where ‘all things girl’ end for me…

Being a survivor of sexual molestation at a very young age, I never, ever got to experience the whole ‘bedroom’ thing. My sister & I shared a room until she was 28 and her and dad stayed in one house and mom, myself and two brothers moved to a completely different house.

I don’t…

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Catching Up With My Soul…

Twenty~Eight days ago…there was stuff strewn all over this apartment and a very anxious woman here as well, picking the fleas off of her wherever they landed.

Flash ahead 28 days from then and you have the same woman, strong, confident, ‘moved in’ who is spending the day after turning 28 (years drug and alcohol free) letting her soul catch up with her.

I just put away the last of the stuff in my…

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